So you’re reading my about me so I guess you may or may not want to gain a small insight into who I am as a person.
Firstly, I’m me, I never try to be anything I’m not because life’s too short to be somebody else. My goal in life is to be an inspiration, to everyone and anyone and even I’ve made the slightest bit of difference to somebody elses life I’ll feel as though I’ve reached my goal. Every day of my life I try and immerse myself with the most inspirational things and people; if you’re around greatness for a long time it starts to rub off on you and why wouldn’t I want that? I find tumblr a great source of inspiration, such a diversity in people, styles and opinions makes for a beautiful collection of what I would class as art.
I’m not going to bitch and moan and say that my life is a pile of shit because quite frankly it isn’t but even those with the greatest life’s will come across difficulties. These last few years haven’t been great, both my mum and dad who were already divorced decided to get separations from their respective partners, the news of which occurred over the space of the week. It has been a harder few months than I imagined and the weeks following I suffered from panic attacks and general overall anxiety which scared the living shit out of my because I have never been like that before.
My Dad’s wife had moved out of the house a few days after I was told and I made the decision to go and live with my dad both to escape the ever-growing tension of my mother’s house and to keep him company so we both didn’t fall apart.
The funny thing about this whole situation is how much it taught me; value your parents, value their existence and most of all don’t for granted that they’ll always be there because it just takes one fateful afternoon when you get a text from your dad saying ‘Oh Isaac, she’s leaving me’ for your whole life to change.
I don’t resent or hate my parents for any of this, we’re all victims of circumstance and we’re all humans and as soon as you play the blame game you’re just adding fuel to the fire. I’ve since moved house (ironically on the same road we lived on when she got her first divorce) and I truly love the house, granted it’s a bit small but it’s not just a house it’s a landmark in my life and also a symbol of change and good things to come.
I am stronger because of this, I know I am, life is about being thrown off, stamped on, beaten up and told your worthless for you to get back up, dust yourself off and carry on. There is nothing more frustrating to your enemies than them seeing you succeed. I don’t ask for your sympathy but rather learn from my downfalls and value what you have whilst you still have it.
By shrouding myself in the arts; be it visual or not, I find solace in what I strive to achieve and personally feel I have gained a hell of a lot determination to achieve my dreams. When there’s conflict in my life I always remind myself that it’s on Earth so what the hell will it matter when I’m in the stars?
There is a loose theme to my blog and that is nature and all things that I appreciate to be greater than myself. I find great inspiration in almost all the photos I post and I love the beauty within them. If you look hard enough, beauty can be found in even the most hostile of environments.
I would give anything to be a successful and through hard word and determination I know that I can succeed in area I choose. I know it will be a long journey but I’ve known this from the start and I have never been one to put on a price on somebodies dreams.
People often describe me as being quite over-bearing, argumentative and at times self-interested but it’s just in my nature; Theatre is one of the most cut-throat environments to be in so you’ve always got to watch your own back and blow your own trumpet and people often mistake these natural tendencies as personal attacks, which I can assure you they are not.
As for the future, I can’t predict what is going to happen but I can almost assure you that I will direct it in the way I want it to go. I have just finished studying BTEC Performing Arts at college, the two year duration of which I have fully enjoyed having taken each and every learning opportunity and used it to my full advantage.
It pains me not having a solid option to continue on to but it also excites me at the same time. The trouble I have is that I have skills but none that are of a standard to which I would want to pursue a career in without a degree or any form of training; I am the human representation of “Jack of all trades, master of none.” and when you’re as indecisive as I am this can prove to be challenging.
Not knowing what you’re doing isn’t necessarily a bad thing but knowing what’s best for you is a hundreds times more important. Don’t sell out your dream just to be a number on a page, explore every avenue of your creative existence and love every moment of everything you do because without the bad you can’t appreciate the good.
So I guess that’s pretty much it, if you’ve read this far then sincere thanks for taking an interest in me, if you need to know anything else don’t hesitate to drop me an ask; I’m an okay person I like to think, but that’s for you to decide. Thanks again for stopping by and giving this a read and I hope that one day our paths will cross, much love,
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